The Atmospheric Knowing of Play: An Extraction Barometer?

he idea for the second contribution emerged upon reading the essay, Introduction: For an Ethology of Exhaustion by Christoph Brunner, Halbe, Hessel Kuipers and Toni Pape. Initially, it was this paper that was going to be explored within this zine. After preliminary conversations, it became clear that while the paper would serve as one axis to discuss the kind of loss one experiences in the process of new ways of knowing, Toni’s experience with the guitar as an ‘amateur’ player would would be what the zine to explores. Two kinds of loss were unpacked in different ways. On the topic of loss and pleasure of new ways of knowing experienced through exhaustion, Toni had an exchange with dramaturge Nienke Scholts on 15th March 2022. The written piece written by Toni on the kind of loss experienced as an amateur musician, is what follows.